Love until we Bleed

I’m really confused and scared and nervous about pretty much everything. I’ve been having bad dizzy spells lately, and had to get bloodwork and an MRI done yesterday and today. I won’t get the results back until Monday. I’m hoping what ever is wrong with me is fixable and not serious. I found out today that my parents are breaking my lease and I have until the 11th of March to find another place to live (yay punishment for dropping out of school). I also just found out two days ago that I got accepted for a full time position at Disney. While this is great news, it now limits where I can live on such short notice. I am broke as fuck. I’m $400 in the hole thanks to misreading my credit card statement last month, and I’m not going to be making full time pay until after the move-out date. Even if I can find someplace to rent a room, I don’t know if I could gather enough for the deposit etc. let alone aford the first month or two of rent. I can’t find anything under $400 and that’s still a lot. I mean…back in Melbourne, you could find fabulous 1/1s for $400 including everything. Orlando is fucking ridiculous. I don’t know what to do.

And on top of all that I’m starting to question if I might potentially be polyamorous. But I really haven’t looked into that yet because that’s just more shit on my over-piled plate.

Basically I’ve been dizzy and shaky and light headed and on the verge of crying for the past week. I’ve had panic attacks and I’ve cried. I had been so good about not having attacks.

I’m actually scared.